I’ve spent the past week sick (luckily not that), but still sick- achy, stuffy, and just enough brain fog that work (and life) has become a bit more difficult than usual. It’s most likely just allergies (Cedar Fever, if you don’t live in a place with CF be grateful! I never had allergies as a kid, or most of my adult life. These started a few years ago and have been getting progressively worse!) but as a result of how I was feeling, I basically spent the last week in bed or on the couch.
And, like anything, staying in and resting is fun when it’s a choice- it gets old when it’s all you can do. My energy was pretty low, so even things like walks I love were not an option. And my brain was a bit all over the place, so anything that required a lot of thought (even reading or watching for pleasure) were pretty much out of the question.
So, you may be wondering what I did! In all honesty, not a lot. I read some and did watch some TV, but mainly I did nothing other than dream about what I would do once I felt like I was me again. The odd thing about getting sick at the beginning of the year is that it throws off whatever habits you’ve been developing. This year I had goals to get into a more consistent shooting/writing schedule- this week I had to cancel every thing (some super exciting!) that I had on my calendar.
And while that was awful, it clarified some things for me. This year I wanted to bring the joy back to my dressing and structure to my work schedule. Being at home this week, I spent some time “window” shopping online, looking at outfits I like, day dreaming about outfits. Sometimes your creativity needs a little break to come back to you- maybe it’s all the allergy meds, but I’m energized to put together outfits, places for shoots, and ideas on how to make my schedule work better for me.
Actually, this week “down” has clarified a lot for me, and made clear which goals I do really want to do. I do want to ensure I get in a great workout each day (I’ve missed them! They help me clear my head) and now I know I want to get up earlier to get them in, and have ideas about what things I want to try. I have ideas about how to rearrange my space, my financial goals. This week made it clear that I want to spend more time with people I love. I also made lists of a ton of things to read and watch.
And I wasn’t even THAT sick comparatively, however, being forced to really take time out, to almost be forced to do nothing is a great time to think about everything. At the beginning of January I spent some time really thinking about my goals, this week feels like my first time choosing them.
Today, I’m hoping to be up and about. To get a workout in (my first in a week!). To do my hair, to get dressed, to begin setting plans in motion. If you’ve been sick recently, you know that may be a big to-do list, but I’m hopeful. Getting sick wasn’t in my plans, but in some ways, I’m so grateful that I got to sit and really get clear on what I want this year to look like. And I’m grateful for rest.
I’m hoping that you are feeling great and that, hopefully without a sick week, your plans for this year are being set in motion.
Wishing us all a week of great health and amazing shoes!